First I would just like to say that I am deeply honored and excited to meet you Mark Hamilton. I am also scared because I have great respect for you through reading your books my heirloom packages.I really feel that I owe you my life for showing me the truth path that I was meant to walk in life.I know that you expect great things from me. That is the reason I am scared. I was raised in a family of mystics, so it was ingrained in every part of my physical and mental make up. I was taught to not think just rely on God. I feel crippled because I don’t know how to use my own brain to work for me.There are times when I try to think and my mind just goes completely blank like its waiting for a sign instead of integrating knowledge and objective reality. My mind has been trained to create reality.do you have and exercise that could get my mind relying on it’s self and not idly waiting.