Mark,
I feel like I stand alone. In a house full of Christians,I’m almost forced to study Christianity. I woke up with a big silver cross under my bed the other morning. I feel so alone. I think it was my dad.
I have two Qs. 1.)First one is a little bit about me and where I stand.
Unlike most people I have A.D.D. It’s very hard for me to keep up with others. I treasure my Neo Tech books. I love reading them. Unfortunately I recieved them at my final term in college. The work is crushing! I never can find time to read them anymore. I’m right where I don’t want to be. I can’t slow things down enough to stay with my fellow memembers of the society. I hate living at my Dad’s house. When I was 19 I didn’t want to be the person that lived with his parents. I had to get started being me. But I had no idea what I wanted to do after high school. So I joined the navy. That was the first time I realized that life was up to me. I no longer had my parents there to help me. Everything changed! I was a little scared at first knowing I was in control with no experience. But from small mistakes to large success, I loved it! I was free! My family never really thought of me as the successful type. I can’t tell you how excited I was to own a car that cost more than both the cars my parents dive!
After my four years in the military, I wanted to feel that excitement again. Being in control and being so successful. All my older cousins looked up to me. So I thought, why stop here. I wanted a real education. So I went back to school and started studying for an associates degree in graphic design. My dad somehow convinced me to move back home. Not only did I feel like I was in reverse, but everybody in the house is a Christian. I don’t mind a person believing what they believe, that’s their right, but why can’t the understand what I believe and let me be?
I’m about to start two jobs now. One is my internship and the other is just to make some side cash to get back out on my own. Away from the support of my family. I use to make posters and read the books you sent, but now there’s just never any time. I’m back where I started. It seems everything is moving to fast! I’m 26 about to be 27 and stag again. How can I catch up?
Q 2.) Once again, someone at school today asked me why I don’t believe in a higher power. I told him to consider the possibilities of life without restriction to creation. It was awesome! I had a little group of people circled around me listening to logical possibilities for our future that would never end if everybody created value. A buddy of mine asked me if the theory of an atom being broken down into a stream of sound was true. I was wondering if you know anything about that?
