I haven’t really found my FNE, but I feel I am very close

I haven’t really found my FNE, but I feel I am very close. I totally understand it and at times I feel it following into place and then it is gone. I am a Physical Education teacher and I am having a hard time trying to put the numbers into helping my school out. I am not sure what to do. Should I just give it time? Just keep studying? Or what? I really appreciate what you are doing for us and I know I will be very important to the Society.