Several questions

Hello,
I have many questions, but will ask the two that seem to strike me this day. First, I am 55, female, and have been searching and searching since I can remember. I was repeatedly told I had it all wrong and should be happy with things as they are. And I have always worked several jobs and taken on way more than any human should. So, after this first lesson, I am feeling a bit overwhelmed as I realize I allowed myself to get caught up in life’s lies and driven to exhaustion, over what? To find out my inner intelligence knew but I didn’t listen? Am I getting this right?
Second, if we will be immortal, what happens to our grown children and grandchildren? What approach do I take with 8 children, their spouses and 11 grandchildren, to date? They are following in my footsteps as “hard working to support your family” kind of people.
While I am excited, I actually feel almost fearful of the prospect of this, especially since I was the driving Christian force in my family since they were born. I need to stop here but my brain is going on and on. I am so excited, I will likely be up for hours, yet, well, it’s a lot to process.
I admit that I haven’t completed all the books in my NeoTech library, due to the large family and 3 jobs for the past 20+ years, but I am on it and intend to do so over the coming year. I apologize if I have rambled.
I appreciate this more than you know. Thank you!