If you check records from around 2005 or the few years after, my name came up on one of your mailing lists. I received an heirloom at that time with the SOS symbol on the cover. I had read about one tenth of that heirloom, at which time my Grandfather became ill and passed in 2007. Immediately following, his wife also deteriorated and passed 6 months later. Their Daughter, my Mother, became ill soon after (her only brother committed suicide in 1996). She passed in July 2013, 1 week before she was to turn 60. During her last 2 years she devastated physically by diabetes and years of smoking, and mentally by knowing her closest family members she knew her whole life were gone, and in 2012 our house caught fire and destroyed, in addition to my heirloom, her 50 years worth of her Family’s memories, pictures, furniture, knick knacks, diaries, everything. I witnessed my Mother, the only person who made me feel loved everyday, sit and watch powerless as her last 2 years of life were torturous and evil, the worst evil I had ever seen.
And this is not my first sight, or feeling of evil. As I read through my Heirlooms, I couldn’t help but reflect on my life. I was first vilified in kindergarten, we were making alphabet collages, my letter was “B” and I had a little 3 yr old sister. I was 5, just old enough to know that, for me and my sister, Mom’s boob was how we ate sometimes. I wasn’t allowed, Mom said I was too old for a long time now. I was confused, and the teacher’s explanation left me feeling like my thoughts were unacceptable and filthy. I have a lot of reflections on my life like that, and see who the neo-cheaters were as I was growing up. Shocking!
Anyway, I just want to say thank you at this point, I can’t say I was totally blind after my personal reflection, but you turned my head and changed my perspective, and showing me that I have not been successful because I was under the impression I had to act like a politician to succeed, so thank you.
I have no questions about the Level 01 meeting, and felt like I didn’t need the answers to the questions asked.
I have already started power-thinking, and I am creating my mini-days today. I am terrible at it, being my first try. But I just have to laugh, because I know as I do it more and more, I will become exceedingly efficient at it. My current situation is self-employed with zero income, but I have seen my future and have begun to create. I look forward to each and every day now and strive for forward movement, no matter how small.
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