First meeting, how far behind am I?

First I have been wondering how I was chosen. I have always known that I have a special blessing awaiting me. From th first invite that I received from Neothink, I felt that this is what I have been looking for.
But I am and have been a slow reader and some things I heard in the meeting that I could not understand.I will continue to read as much as I can when I can. Am I that far behind others in my group?
p.s. Thanks for the Invite and Insight!!!