Nothing Else Worked

I was planning another suicide attempt. Life in this world frustrated me. I had failed at suicide so many times, I felt like a complete failure. It had been ten years since my wife left and turned my kids against me.

I had tried to kill myself before I met her, while I was with her, and after she left, so her leaving was more a symptom than a cause. I have always been dissatisfied with life. I applied myself diligently to the Christian religion and couldn’t understand why God would allow anybody to go through what I had to. I still can’t understand how being beaten as a child is my own fault.

So I was a project. I tried therapy, medications, and had been hospitalized more times than I can count. Nothing ever worked, and suicide was the only relief available to me.

Now enter Mark Hamilton. About nine months ago, I got my first heirloom manual. Since then, I have been joining the realm of the living. The negative people in my life are leaving. I am embracing the void expectantly, because I know now that something better is coming.

This itself is huge for me, but there has been an even greater miracle: I am texting one of my estranged daughters. Furthermore, the constant thoughts of suicide are gone. I feel an excitement for life.

I am still very new, but I fully expect my life to get better and better as long as I continue to apply the sound wisdom. I am excitedly looking forward to the rest of my life. Thank you, Mark Hamilton.