My life has changed a lot.  I am now chanting.  I am doing my FNE but it is only as a hobby right now.  I left the Chicago Neo-Think clubhouse.  I am interested in going to a clubhouse that is close to Chicago.  After I chant I have a 5-mintue miracle.  I thought that Buddhism was a Mysticism religion.   I work out on a regular basis.  I have a steady income.  Because I am at peace with myself I cause conflict with others EVERYWHERE I GO.  I would still like to be able to see through the lies, and tricks of Neo-cheaters. I emailed you in the past and told you of the terrible disorder in the Chicago clubhouse.  Now the Chicago clubhouse has disbanded from what I last heard. I feel that the people have a lot mysticism in their lives and they cannot see the true even if it bit them.