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its a little more complicated than that though sorry i have read quite a bit not all and i appreciate the over all messages that i’ve grasped for the kind of understood bigger picture and things have changed b/c of all this new info but me being the over annalyst self over annalyst especially and constant questioner of contradictions and still hung up on what has been and whats to come i am raised to be a mystic and i want to believe in fairies and like concepts (hypathetically speaking) because for so long the reality of life has been almost to depressing to bear and the hopes that if i keep sucking it up one day something will change then me knowing and you saying the reality of it is life will change regardless but you decide for better or for worse by doing something or not doing something and thats the reality but for me i want things to change and am having such a hard time finding the emotional energy to push my physical drive forward and the only person i can blame is myself and that truth hurts alot because i feel so powerless yet so responsible and self destructive how do i break the pattern emotionally to then break free physically. and do you have therapist in the society? ha sry that made me feel better i was raised to believe their helpful only to find out its a practice like everything else I just want to close with im glad to be here and verry thankful more than i could ever express just seriously struggling with myself and cant figure out how i of all people apply to these life conquering expectations i cant even apply to myself hopeful though and by the way the depressed question you through in hit home like at my back door incase you didnt notice ps please help me fix me if nothing else because i could do great things if i could get past myself thanks!
